Hello, muggles!

This is my first job.

I wondered if it would be better had it consist of standing around and folding clothes but then again... Maybe not. I'm glad I have support along the way, especially from my mother and my new friend, Huixuan. She works much harder than I do and I'm grateful for it cos she motivates me! We're constantly told that it will be hard at first but will be fine after some time. But this week seemed awfully, awfully long. Somehow, time passes more quickly when you stay at home and do nothing but watch videos on Youtube all day. Still, I learnt a lot of new things(from work, not Youtube) but am apprehensive about applying them.

A customer made my day today. Not that I was directly or indirectly involved in helping him, but listening to and feeling his sense of relief and gratefulness at the end really makes me feel it's all going to be worth it.

Btw, I'm the proud owner of a new phone! You black beauty, you. It's a smartphone and it makes me feel too stupid for it. Man... I can't imagine your feelings. Anyway I haven't got any idea how to use a lot of functions that come with it but it's not like I need them. And how in the world am I supposed to know I'm surfing on wifi and not GPRS or some other chargeable service? I didn't get a wifi phone for nothing!

Come tomorrow, Hui Ling, Qian Hui and I are going to go... shopping! Or rather, I'm going to go shopping and they are going to accompany me. We shall spend quality time together, yeah yeah uh huh uh huh. And remind me to think twice before going to their sleepovers, because they NEVER sleep. It should be called a wakeover instead. And exclusive to Hui Ling, a wakesleepwakeover. Oh gawd, it is so bad for your skin and health! Be good girls and get proper sleep next time. You can come to my house. I shall personally tie and drug you so you fall asleep tuck you in bed.

I've always wondered why I have no problems shopping, swimming, going to the dentist and doing pretty much everything by myself but when it comes to eating lunch alone in public, I immediately turn into this lost, vulnerable, anxious little girl desperate for reassurance in the form of company. Think dark background with a single source of light on a child with a fearful look in her eyes on the verge of tears, clutching a teddy bear for that extra defenseless effect. It's very pathetic, really. Heck, I don't even need whoever is with me to be eating as well. I only need someone to be there. Which is so strange because essentially, I'm still eating alone. And I'm not the only one who's like this. A certain ex-US President once asked someone over to his house in the wee hours of morning to -get this- watch him play a game of chess that he was playing by himself. So yeah. Bill, you and me, we have an understanding now.

The only reason why I turned out this way is because I now give too much of a shit about what other people think if I ate alone. I had absolutely no problems eating without company while I was in secondary school. Not. At. All. And I'm perfectly fine with eating alone in my own house and one of the reasons for that is because there are no strangers around to wonder what's going on in their heads. It's all in the mind, people. It's all in the mind. Your mind, of course. Not theirs. And I don't know why, but there is this consensus between JC students that being alone = being lonely. It's not true. You can be alone and feel completely at peace with yourself, with no need for any additional company other than your own. Or you could be in a large group consisting of people you know but feel completely miserable all the time.

Anyway, as a follow up to my previous post, I have recovered from the fever but my nose is runny and my lungs are full of phelgm. And when you have a bosom that would make even the most successful of porn stars green with envy, it's not too advisable to be pounding at your chest to ease the pain that arises from coughing all that shit out. Trust me - I know from experience.

When I'm sick, I like to announce it to the whole world.



Yeah baby I'm hot and you know it.